LIFE : His Fight, His Triumph

He used to think he was alone in his struggles. But with each passing tumbling stone all of his insecurities were banished as he realised it was not the him; the lone; battling life, there were millions of others countering this malady.

"We as a whole need to learn from each other and real change is slow," he said.

Never regret. Everything should be the way it ended up being. Quit pointing the finger at life for being out of line. That is the manner by which it is. Worrying over it won't help and it's never too late where it is possible to start from the very beginning again.

The best lessons he has learned in dealing with his life can be summed up in three words: Never Give Up. This meant that he always had a new challenge to go up against. Yet, he discovered that the best approach was not to let his obsessions dictate his life. 

Over the time, his struggle taught him to treat life as a gift it seems to be.

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MY RHYMES :One Step Closer

When you wake up in the morning, you always asking yourself questions, whether you realize or not. Today I woke up at 4am, I don’t know how or why, but somehow I woke up. I believe it might be due to I’ve left my part time job at Amazon, which had night shifts. For the last couple of months the first thing I would do every single time when I woke up is turn on the laptop and watch some videos on YouTube. But today something different has happened, I was way far from music and my mind was into my past and that’s when I realized that my life has somehow changed completely in last 4 to 5 months. I asked myself two questions “What am I doing with my life and how has not being with Numb changed my life?” 

It’s so strange to think somebody I knew so well is now a totally stranger to me, but that somebody is still matters to me. I realized not all of a good dream is fulfilled. Everything ends, that’s how we know that everything begins. All good things must come to an end, and my relationship is no different. Sometime it’s not about the happy ending, sometime it’s about the story. This realization alone gave me the perspective that is going to help me answer these two seemingly complex questions.

ONE STEP CLOSER

It’s a complete new day

Simply relax, sit by the window

Feel the wind in your hair

Feel the mist in your eyes

Give the morning a chance to inspire you

Give the sun a chance to shine all over

Let’s take one more step in the future

Let’s turn one more page of the past

Everybody has regrets

Everybody commits mistakes

Everybody has a terrible past

Don’t hide your scars

Wear them as a motivation

It’s difficult, to let go and move on

Let your own life be an inspiration

Because one step is one step closer towards your dreams

Problems aren’t going to alter themselves

Difficulties aren’t going to vanish

This journey will be tough, there will be lows

It’ll take time, possibly days, perhaps months, might be years

But at last, it will set you free

Remember this,

Life, gives you a possibility

To move on with every new dawn

© SAMSARA

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RHYMES : The Death Song

I'm scared of clocks now

Cause soon, they'll never tick for you anymore

Outside the window

It's pouring jazz and blues

But it never rains for you

And I cannot hold my tears

Knowing soon you won't be here

It's more than words to hold your hand

I hope you can understand

It's more than hope that keeps me here

I'd be with you anywhere, my dear

It's more than love that makes me wait

Knowing it's all too late

Your face get's more and more pale now

And now my bread has gone stale, oh

I'm such a worthless bedside mystic

I cannot chew, the lumps resist it

Searching for words for some relief

While I hide away and scream

But you're just waiting for death to come

It's in the background like a redrum

The warm sound of your voice is still

As angels cry

Falleth from the skies

You can rest now your chest and lay, my dear

Much I'd love to have you near

It's more than words to hold your hand

I hope you can understand

It's more than hope that keeps me here

I'd be with you anywhere, my dear

It's more than love that makes me wait

Knowing it's all too late

© +Chandra Dhanik 

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R H Y M E S : I 'm s o r r y....

A random composition I went across to..

I can really relate it to me.... 

Certainly this is me...

A new me....

And I'm sorry...

I'm sorry I kiss your lips 

in my sleep,

I'm sorry you're on my mind 

as I lose myself and find myself,

I'm sorry I imagine you

by my side as I cook myself 

meals, singing the songs I imagine

would be our favourite tunes.

I'm sorry I reach for you with my arm 

every morning as I wake,

just to find that you ae not there.

I'm sorry we're apart...

I'm sorry I'm falling in love...

I'm sorry I'm here,

while you're there.....

© ANONYMOUS

MY RHYMES : Here comes the rain again....

It’s one more morning,

And I am gazing at the sky,

I saw the dim dark clouds,

And I think of you…

Drop by drop it has begun to rain,

I can feel you when the droplets touch me,

The sound of pouring rain,

The whisper of wind,

Looking at the rain drop tumbling down my window,

And I think of you…

I want to walk in this rain,

I want to move in this rain,

But when I do as such, 

I discover you next to me,

Drenched in the memories of time went through with you,

Memories of my past flow with the rain,

And following the rain, I remember us...

With the tears tumbling down my heart, 

I attempt to erase you,

But I think of you again at the sound of rain,

Are you listening to this sound?

We, who used to love the rain.

Do you remember me?

I miss you when it rains…

Despite of the fact you’ve left,

Regardless of the possibility that you forget me,

Please remember us again when it rains..

Because I miss us when it rains...

LIFE : " We Need To Talk" As Hard To Say As It Is To Hear

“We need to talk”

Hearing these four simple words from your relationship partner never feels good. Our heart shrinks, your palms gets sweaty because it’s never about we need to talk about what a great relationship we have or our best friend are going to spend their rest of life together. It’s never that, it’s always we need to talk about the beginning of the end.

Whether our relationship is awful, good or great we don’t like ending. It’s a human nature we don’t like to lose things and especially we don’t like to lose things that are important to us. And make no mistakes relationships are the single most important thing to us in our life. It’s the source of our all best memories, it’s the source of our all worst memories. When we think back on our life when we are 80 or 90 year old and we look back over the course of our lifetime, we are not going to think I wish I earned a better phone, I wish I spent more time on internet etc. It’s not going to be any of those kind of things, it’s going to be I wish I spent more time with the people I love. Because our relationships they build us, they define us, they sustain us and they can break us too. And we all know relationship breakup can be tough, loneliness, depression, increase drug use. We lose a relationship, part of who we are as a person goes with it.

Breakups happen and relationships fail and when they fail it hurts because before that we were a happy, vibrant person, very much in love, things are going perfectly. We breakup and we are alone, we are sad, we are disappointed, things hurts, we are heart broken, we are confused.

No one likes being in this situation but life thankfully happens on continue, no matter it’s a good thing or a bad thing. But it goes other way too, sometimes our relationship is really isn’t perfect, so some breakups are worthy of celebrations. So when our relationship doesn’t help us to become a better person ending it does. Which is important to realize.

Relationships are important, time is short and mistakes are costly. Relationships should be the best part of your life. Hopefully we will find one that will build us and sustain us, hopefully we have that. But if we don’t, we have to ask our self what is one hour, one day, one week, one month, one life time of our happiness worth. Because great relationship seldom fail, bad one do as they should and when they do, when those relationship fails they end everything. Relationships are broken that doesn’t mean you have to be broken forever. Something to take advantage of not to conceal. This what can exactly happen to our relationship, our relationship lead by some cracks but those cracks, those imperfections, those are the sign of strength and beauty because breakup don’t have to leave you broken because you are stronger then you know.

As Ralph Waldo Emerson said “Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail”.

MY TALES : I free myself

I TRIED TO SPEAK TO PEOPLE BUT THEY WERE COLD AS ICE, SO NOW I SPEAK IN MY MIND TO THE DEMONS IN MY PARADISE.

@The Obsolete Poet

Thepu: Thank you.

Numb: For what?

Thepu: For everything, every day and talking to me.

Numb: Have you forgotten that it’s you who has created me in your mind? Thepu I'm not real.

Thepu: I know you are not real. I know that you're already gone Numb. However, it's the only way I'm left with to communicate with you. I am so sorry Numb, I have failed everything. I don’t know how I am ever going to forgive myself.

Numb: You can’t blame yourself.

Thepu: But I do. If I hadn’t have…

Numb: It’s not your fault. You loved me I know that and I loved you, you know that. That won’t go away. I know you think you’re never going to find someone like me again, and well you’re right. It’ll be impossible to find someone with my specific intellectual and beautiful gifts.

Thepu: hahaha…see you still makes me laugh.

Numb: I know it seems impossible, but one day you’re going to be ready for someone else. And she’s going to be incredible. Know who I’ve always liked?

Thepu: Who?

Numb: That your childhood imaginary girl with basketball in her hand.

Thepu: I have never even mentioned it to you.

Numb: Yeah, you’re right. It’s almost like I’m the manifestation of your subconscious.

Thepu: You are still that funny.

Numb: I am going to go.

Thepu: I don’t want you to.

Numb: I know…but I am already gone.

Thepu: Good bye Numb.

POST SCRIPT:

We can never wound the soul, just as we can never wound God, but we can become imprisoned by our memories, and that makes our lives wretched even when we have everything we need in order to be happy. Sometime these memories holds you back, where you don’t want to stay anymore and you blame yourself for your present. And this feeling of guilt and frustration is still there with you. You keep on asking a same question “Why I can’t be happy? “. So in order to overcome this sense of dissatisfaction you need to change everything and move forward, you need to forgive your past, you need to forgive yourself.

I have been through this since very long. But I refused to follow my fate, because that tragedy was unacceptable to me because I always blame myself for the same. Tragedy always brings about radical change in our lives, a change that is associated with the same principle: loss. When faced by any loss, there is no point in trying to recover what has been lost. It’s best to take advantage of the large space that opens up before us and fill it with something new. In theory, every loss is for our good. In practice, though, that is when we question the existence of God and ask ourselves: What did I do to deserve this? But we need to understand this anyone truly committed to life never stops walking.

As Paulo Coelho very rightly quoted the importance of forgiving yourself in his book ALEPH :

I free myself from hatred through forgiveness and love. I understand that suffering, when it cannot be avoided, is here to help me on my way to glory. I understand that everything is connected, that all roads meet and that all rivers flow into the same sea. That is why I am, at this moment, an instrument of forgiveness, forgiveness for crimes that were done by me, one crime I know about, the other I do not.

I will be capable of loving, regardless of whether I am loved in return,

Of giving, even when I have nothing,

Of working happily, even in the midst of difficulties,

Of holding out my hand, even when utterly alone and abandoned,

Of drying my tears, even while I weep,

Of believing, even when no one believes in me.

So it is. So it will be.

MY TALES : Love is about sacrifices too...

I TRIED TO SPEAK TO PEOPLE BUT THEY WERE COLD AS ICE, SO NOW I SPEAK IN MY MIND TO THE DEMONS IN MY PARADISE.

@The Obsolete Poet

Numb: I can’t be with you.

Thepu: Yes, you can because that’s what both of us want. You know, things can be different. I could be different. And I am promising you, I’m swearing to you, there will be no more lies.

Numb: You know, no matter how much you love me, there’s always going to be a part of you that defaults to the man you were. And sooner than we both think, you’re going to be stuck in a situation where you have to make a decision that requires you to hide things from me again.

Thepu: See, you can’t know that.

Numb: I do know that, and you know that too Thepu. That’s this life you don’t need me, you’ll be fine.

Thepu: So what does that means?

Numb: It means that it is too hard to be with you every day and not be with you. That’s not fair to either of us. You don’t give up, that’s what makes you Thepu. Wonderful career is waiting for you ahead but there’s no fixing this. We have to let each other go.

Thepu: Numb, I don’t want to let you go.

Numb: Even I don’t want to let you go. But I’m already gone Thepu. You just have to get used to it....

POST SCRIPT : 

I don't know what is more appropriate "to love someone enough to let her go" or "to love someone enough to never let her go".

On the off chance that you have reasons to trust that she would be more satisfied and happier far from you (which implies that she's not happy with you or the relationship is not working for her for some unkown reasons) then, if you let her go, you are telling that you love her. It's like you want to see her to be happy regardless of every single reason, no matter with who and it's like ALRIGHT for you, yet you sort of make this sacrifice so as to make her life simpler, easier and less difficult. As I would see it, love is about sacrifices as well, if you REALLY love her, you want to see her to have a cheerful life and a smile all over right? That is it. 

I know it's entirely difficult to think this way yet we can't see just our side of happines always. We ought to look the other in her eyes everyday and locate a little satisfaction. If we don't, we try to fill the unfilled eyes and if we are not ready to do it so letting her go is the best. It doesn't mean you are giving up on her, it means that you respect her decision. 

I know it's much harder to let you know... It can keep going forever to heal if you genuinely loves her however the reality of the situation will become obvious eventually and the memories will turn sweet and it will get less demanding and easier. Time makes everything less demanding and easier.. furthermore, you can even love once more, keep it in mind !

MY TALES: Revisit your past in order to move on with life

I TRIED TO SPEAK TO PEOPLE BUT THEY WERE COLD AS ICE, SO NOW I SPEAK IN MY MIND TO THE DEMONS IN MY PARADISE.
@The Obsolete Poet


Rahul: I think you should go.

Thepu: What ?

Rahul: For an outing. I think you should go. Instead of trying to bury yourself in your work and forget about your past, why don’t you take the night to celebrate your past? Go to a restaurant, have a glass of wine, toast your past and all the wonderful memories you had with her.

Thepu: I don’t know. That just seems not right. I mean, she’s gone. I am supposed to move on, right? I mean, that’s the healthy thing to do?

Rahul: Well, there’s no right or wrong way to grieve. Sometimes allowing yourself to indulge in memories of a loved one is the best way to get closure.

Thepu: Should I be paying you for this or….

Rahul: Well, let’s just call this two friends talking…

POST SCRIPT: 

Sometimes the only way to move forward is to revisit the things in your past that were holding you back. We have to deal with them head on, no matter how scary they may be. Because once we do, we’ll see that we can go further than we have ever imagined.

MY TALES : She who taught him

I TRIED TO SPEAK TO PEOPLE BUT THEY WERE COLD AS ICE, SO NOW I SPEAK IN MY MIND TO THE DEMONS IN MY PARADISE.
@The Obsolete Poet 

Thepu: It just…it all makes me think about Numb. I think about her every day, Rahul. It just feels wrong.

Rahul: I know for a fact that Numb would want you to find love again.

Thepu: I know but..

Rahul: Look, Thepu. You are the only person who is going to know when you are ready to move on, but until then don’t keep yourself completely closed off, you know? You’re going to miss out on something great. That’s the thing, Thepu. Everything keeps moving forward. Question is, when will you?

Thepu: I don’t know, Rahul.

Rahul: Well tell me one thing, what does Numb mean to you? But speak from the heart. Talk as if it was the last thing you could say to her.

Thepu: What does Numb mean to me? Hmmm.. Numb you know, a lot of times I have a hard time figuring out what to say to people, but when it comes to you, Numb, I don’t. Because with you, everything that used to feel tough just doesn’t anymore. It’s one of the things I love about you. You don’t need me. You can handle anything on your own because you’re fearless and independent, loving and kind. You are without question the best decision I ever made. I’ve never thanked you for choosing to be with me because each day with you is a gift. So, thank you. You deserve the world, Numb. You deserve to be happy the rest of your life, and no one wants that more for you than me. Keep smiling, Numb. I love you.

Numb, you have many qualities, many astonishing qualities. And I, for one, cannot wait to move on to the next chapter.  Before I met you, I had a plan. I had a way that I was going to be. But then you walked into my life. Or, I showed up at Robotic workshop and you changed everything. I was in darkness. But with your kindness, your generosity, your compassion, your intelligence, your wit and your trust, you brought me into the light. You let me know that I deserved it. You were that light. And I don’t know if I still deserve that trust if I deserve you. I probably don’t. But whatever has happened, whatever will happen, the way that you make me feel is the best part of my life. You can ask me to say that I don’t love you that I will never lie to you again. You are my always and I just want the chance to be yours. I have loved you with all my soul.

Rahul: Look at youself Thepu, she made you a man.  Love is real, beacuse love is life itself. And if you lose her Thepu, it'll be ok because you are one of those people lucky enough to have experienced it. From the moment she walked into your life, everything changed. You became a person that you didn't even know. You became the very best version of yourself. That would never have been possible without your relationship. Her love gives your life meaning. It gives you a purpose. And it brings you more joy than one can ever take away from you, not even Numb. And it's worth living for. All of it.

POST SCRIPT:
Its not easy to detach from people you hvae close ties with, but sometimes it's necessary in order to restore your sanity, you peace of mind.

LIFE IS : An inspirational poem

A very inspirational poem written by Mother Teresa about life.

Simple words but strong message.

LIFE IS A GIFT : Stop Worrying , Start Living

Why do we worry for the tomorrow?

God who have taken care of us through all the days of our life, will he not take care of us tomorrow?

It's been 2 years since I moved to Pune (India) for my Post Graduation and I have completed my degree last month. Pune is a beautiful place in its own way: a home for people after retirement, a place for education exposure for the seekers, a gateway for Information Technology and Automobile industries, Southern Command of Indian Army and off course a largest city within the Western Ghats Mountains. Pune has a beautifully laid out home for paraplegics called Paraplegic Rehabilitation Centre. It is laid out in green, serene surroundings of the Army Cantonment. Many soldiers who have been injured in the war, leading to spine injury and partial paralysis live here. They are taught to use their feet and mouth to paint beautiful pictures. These paraplegics are taught to use the able parts of their body for various vocational skills. Many of them paint with their mouth or foot and produce excellent greeting cards, decorative murals, panels and landscapes. They all are activey participate in sports events and many of them also represented India in Olympics for disables. When you will interact with these army persons, you will see their positive attitude towards life and how they refused to give up over their problems.  Instead of lamenting over mishaps, we should also find the solution to overcome obstacles on our path like these army persons. Whenever we are faced with difficulties, look very deep into it and learn from it and be like a person who create beauty out of it.

Dada Vaswani, born Jashan Pahlajrai Vaswani, is a spiritual leader and head of the Sadhu Vaswani Mission rightly quoted "Worry paralyses the will and makes us unfit for action. It clouds our vision and distracts the thinking process. Worrying cannot improve matters. Then, why worry? "

Dada Vaswani gave six mantras (statement or slogan) to overcome every possible difficulties of our life. By practicing these mantras in our daily life every obstacles can be conquered.

1st mantra   : I will turn all stopping stones into stepping stones.

2nd mantra : Stop worrying. Shut the doors on worries.

3rd mantra : Be positive.

4th mantra : Everything is in its proper place in God's universe and nothing can go wrong.

5th mantra : Have faith in God in all circumstances and in all adverse conditions.

6th mantra : Offer gratitude to God.

If we make these six mantras of our lives, we need not fear anything, ever in our lives. Repeat to our self again and again and we can overcome every problem. We will find that fear will not touch us because we are not alone God is with us. Mental sunshine is equally powerful. When we have the will to be free of fear, the sunshine of our faith and confidence will melt the ice of insecurity and dread. But it is not easy to still the mind. A mind that is wandering and restless is like a disturbed lake, waves are constantly rising on its surface and it cannot reflect the stillness of the sky. But we can control our mind through practice of meditation and chanting. When we control our thoughts, we still the mind and it becomes capable of beautiful, elevating reflections, reflection of divine light within us. Everything happens at the right place and the right time, but as a human being it's our basic nature to worry about things. Worry is a sign of negative mind. We should always be positive. If we are positive good things will surely happen in our life. The reverse is equally true, if we are negative our negative thoughts will actualize. This is simply a law of attraction, what you feel now is what you are going to attract.

Find a solution. Do not succumb to your worries. Worries have a habit of multiplying. Worries are like worms and they tend to gnaw your brains and weaken our mind.  

The sea is vast, my skiff is small. I trust in Thee, who guard's all. @Sadhu Vaswani 

Stop worrying, have faith in him and start thanking.

God is watching over us.