R H Y M E S : I 'm s o r r y....

A random composition I went across to..

I can really relate it to me.... 

Certainly this is me...

A new me....

And I'm sorry...

I'm sorry I kiss your lips 

in my sleep,

I'm sorry you're on my mind 

as I lose myself and find myself,

I'm sorry I imagine you

by my side as I cook myself 

meals, singing the songs I imagine

would be our favourite tunes.

I'm sorry I reach for you with my arm 

every morning as I wake,

just to find that you ae not there.

I'm sorry we're apart...

I'm sorry I'm falling in love...

I'm sorry I'm here,

while you're there.....

© ANONYMOUS

MY RHYMES : Here comes the rain again....

It’s one more morning,

And I am gazing at the sky,

I saw the dim dark clouds,

And I think of you…

Drop by drop it has begun to rain,

I can feel you when the droplets touch me,

The sound of pouring rain,

The whisper of wind,

Looking at the rain drop tumbling down my window,

And I think of you…

I want to walk in this rain,

I want to move in this rain,

But when I do as such, 

I discover you next to me,

Drenched in the memories of time went through with you,

Memories of my past flow with the rain,

And following the rain, I remember us...

With the tears tumbling down my heart, 

I attempt to erase you,

But I think of you again at the sound of rain,

Are you listening to this sound?

We, who used to love the rain.

Do you remember me?

I miss you when it rains…

Despite of the fact you’ve left,

Regardless of the possibility that you forget me,

Please remember us again when it rains..

Because I miss us when it rains...

LIFE : " We Need To Talk" As Hard To Say As It Is To Hear

“We need to talk”

Hearing these four simple words from your relationship partner never feels good. Our heart shrinks, your palms gets sweaty because it’s never about we need to talk about what a great relationship we have or our best friend are going to spend their rest of life together. It’s never that, it’s always we need to talk about the beginning of the end.

Whether our relationship is awful, good or great we don’t like ending. It’s a human nature we don’t like to lose things and especially we don’t like to lose things that are important to us. And make no mistakes relationships are the single most important thing to us in our life. It’s the source of our all best memories, it’s the source of our all worst memories. When we think back on our life when we are 80 or 90 year old and we look back over the course of our lifetime, we are not going to think I wish I earned a better phone, I wish I spent more time on internet etc. It’s not going to be any of those kind of things, it’s going to be I wish I spent more time with the people I love. Because our relationships they build us, they define us, they sustain us and they can break us too. And we all know relationship breakup can be tough, loneliness, depression, increase drug use. We lose a relationship, part of who we are as a person goes with it.

Breakups happen and relationships fail and when they fail it hurts because before that we were a happy, vibrant person, very much in love, things are going perfectly. We breakup and we are alone, we are sad, we are disappointed, things hurts, we are heart broken, we are confused.

No one likes being in this situation but life thankfully happens on continue, no matter it’s a good thing or a bad thing. But it goes other way too, sometimes our relationship is really isn’t perfect, so some breakups are worthy of celebrations. So when our relationship doesn’t help us to become a better person ending it does. Which is important to realize.

Relationships are important, time is short and mistakes are costly. Relationships should be the best part of your life. Hopefully we will find one that will build us and sustain us, hopefully we have that. But if we don’t, we have to ask our self what is one hour, one day, one week, one month, one life time of our happiness worth. Because great relationship seldom fail, bad one do as they should and when they do, when those relationship fails they end everything. Relationships are broken that doesn’t mean you have to be broken forever. Something to take advantage of not to conceal. This what can exactly happen to our relationship, our relationship lead by some cracks but those cracks, those imperfections, those are the sign of strength and beauty because breakup don’t have to leave you broken because you are stronger then you know.

As Ralph Waldo Emerson said “Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail”.

MY TALES : I free myself

I TRIED TO SPEAK TO PEOPLE BUT THEY WERE COLD AS ICE, SO NOW I SPEAK IN MY MIND TO THE DEMONS IN MY PARADISE.

@The Obsolete Poet

Thepu: Thank you.

Numb: For what?

Thepu: For everything, every day and talking to me.

Numb: Have you forgotten that it’s you who has created me in your mind? Thepu I'm not real.

Thepu: I know you are not real. I know that you're already gone Numb. However, it's the only way I'm left with to communicate with you. I am so sorry Numb, I have failed everything. I don’t know how I am ever going to forgive myself.

Numb: You can’t blame yourself.

Thepu: But I do. If I hadn’t have…

Numb: It’s not your fault. You loved me I know that and I loved you, you know that. That won’t go away. I know you think you’re never going to find someone like me again, and well you’re right. It’ll be impossible to find someone with my specific intellectual and beautiful gifts.

Thepu: hahaha…see you still makes me laugh.

Numb: I know it seems impossible, but one day you’re going to be ready for someone else. And she’s going to be incredible. Know who I’ve always liked?

Thepu: Who?

Numb: That your childhood imaginary girl with basketball in her hand.

Thepu: I have never even mentioned it to you.

Numb: Yeah, you’re right. It’s almost like I’m the manifestation of your subconscious.

Thepu: You are still that funny.

Numb: I am going to go.

Thepu: I don’t want you to.

Numb: I know…but I am already gone.

Thepu: Good bye Numb.

POST SCRIPT:

We can never wound the soul, just as we can never wound God, but we can become imprisoned by our memories, and that makes our lives wretched even when we have everything we need in order to be happy. Sometime these memories holds you back, where you don’t want to stay anymore and you blame yourself for your present. And this feeling of guilt and frustration is still there with you. You keep on asking a same question “Why I can’t be happy? “. So in order to overcome this sense of dissatisfaction you need to change everything and move forward, you need to forgive your past, you need to forgive yourself.

I have been through this since very long. But I refused to follow my fate, because that tragedy was unacceptable to me because I always blame myself for the same. Tragedy always brings about radical change in our lives, a change that is associated with the same principle: loss. When faced by any loss, there is no point in trying to recover what has been lost. It’s best to take advantage of the large space that opens up before us and fill it with something new. In theory, every loss is for our good. In practice, though, that is when we question the existence of God and ask ourselves: What did I do to deserve this? But we need to understand this anyone truly committed to life never stops walking.

As Paulo Coelho very rightly quoted the importance of forgiving yourself in his book ALEPH :

I free myself from hatred through forgiveness and love. I understand that suffering, when it cannot be avoided, is here to help me on my way to glory. I understand that everything is connected, that all roads meet and that all rivers flow into the same sea. That is why I am, at this moment, an instrument of forgiveness, forgiveness for crimes that were done by me, one crime I know about, the other I do not.

I will be capable of loving, regardless of whether I am loved in return,

Of giving, even when I have nothing,

Of working happily, even in the midst of difficulties,

Of holding out my hand, even when utterly alone and abandoned,

Of drying my tears, even while I weep,

Of believing, even when no one believes in me.

So it is. So it will be.

MY TALES : Love is about sacrifices too...

I TRIED TO SPEAK TO PEOPLE BUT THEY WERE COLD AS ICE, SO NOW I SPEAK IN MY MIND TO THE DEMONS IN MY PARADISE.

@The Obsolete Poet

Numb: I can’t be with you.

Thepu: Yes, you can because that’s what both of us want. You know, things can be different. I could be different. And I am promising you, I’m swearing to you, there will be no more lies.

Numb: You know, no matter how much you love me, there’s always going to be a part of you that defaults to the man you were. And sooner than we both think, you’re going to be stuck in a situation where you have to make a decision that requires you to hide things from me again.

Thepu: See, you can’t know that.

Numb: I do know that, and you know that too Thepu. That’s this life you don’t need me, you’ll be fine.

Thepu: So what does that means?

Numb: It means that it is too hard to be with you every day and not be with you. That’s not fair to either of us. You don’t give up, that’s what makes you Thepu. Wonderful career is waiting for you ahead but there’s no fixing this. We have to let each other go.

Thepu: Numb, I don’t want to let you go.

Numb: Even I don’t want to let you go. But I’m already gone Thepu. You just have to get used to it....

POST SCRIPT : 

I don't know what is more appropriate "to love someone enough to let her go" or "to love someone enough to never let her go".

On the off chance that you have reasons to trust that she would be more satisfied and happier far from you (which implies that she's not happy with you or the relationship is not working for her for some unkown reasons) then, if you let her go, you are telling that you love her. It's like you want to see her to be happy regardless of every single reason, no matter with who and it's like ALRIGHT for you, yet you sort of make this sacrifice so as to make her life simpler, easier and less difficult. As I would see it, love is about sacrifices as well, if you REALLY love her, you want to see her to have a cheerful life and a smile all over right? That is it. 

I know it's entirely difficult to think this way yet we can't see just our side of happines always. We ought to look the other in her eyes everyday and locate a little satisfaction. If we don't, we try to fill the unfilled eyes and if we are not ready to do it so letting her go is the best. It doesn't mean you are giving up on her, it means that you respect her decision. 

I know it's much harder to let you know... It can keep going forever to heal if you genuinely loves her however the reality of the situation will become obvious eventually and the memories will turn sweet and it will get less demanding and easier. Time makes everything less demanding and easier.. furthermore, you can even love once more, keep it in mind !

MY TALES: Revisit your past in order to move on with life

I TRIED TO SPEAK TO PEOPLE BUT THEY WERE COLD AS ICE, SO NOW I SPEAK IN MY MIND TO THE DEMONS IN MY PARADISE.
@The Obsolete Poet


Rahul: I think you should go.

Thepu: What ?

Rahul: For an outing. I think you should go. Instead of trying to bury yourself in your work and forget about your past, why don’t you take the night to celebrate your past? Go to a restaurant, have a glass of wine, toast your past and all the wonderful memories you had with her.

Thepu: I don’t know. That just seems not right. I mean, she’s gone. I am supposed to move on, right? I mean, that’s the healthy thing to do?

Rahul: Well, there’s no right or wrong way to grieve. Sometimes allowing yourself to indulge in memories of a loved one is the best way to get closure.

Thepu: Should I be paying you for this or….

Rahul: Well, let’s just call this two friends talking…

POST SCRIPT: 

Sometimes the only way to move forward is to revisit the things in your past that were holding you back. We have to deal with them head on, no matter how scary they may be. Because once we do, we’ll see that we can go further than we have ever imagined.