MY TALES : Farewell my Love

SOMETIMES, LIFE GIVES YOU TWO OPTIONS: LOSING YOURSELF OR LOSING SOMEONE ELSE. AND I GOT BOTH OF THEM.

Hello Numb,

Where do I begin? I wish I could let you know the amount of respect I have for you, regardless I love you with everything that is in me. You're many miles far from me and I would walk there right now to simply see your perfect beautiful smile. 

I don't know how to begin this letter; I have such a great amount of feeling in my heart. I never thought this would happen, never believed that it would be over, that we would say our last farewell. You were sent to be my heavenly angel. Much obliged to you for everything, for every one of your sacrifices. I never knew love until I knew you. I imparted to you my mind, body, heart and soul. We shared an inclination so profound that basically can't be articulated.

Your eyes shine like a pole star, your smile is divine, your heart is so deep, your touch is so pure and your picture remains solidified in my psyche. You taught me the true meaning of love and sacrifice. Your love totally changed my life, made a different and new me. Nothing was too tough, nothing was impossible to achieve because of you. 

You are the true motivation for me. You gave me strength during my basketball matches, you were the one who believed in me and helped me with my studies. You have inspired me to be the better person I can be and whatever I am today is just because of you, thanks Numb. 

I have seen in you a girl, who is perfect in every relationship. Irrespective of whether it is Mother – Daughter, Father – Daughter, Brother – Sister, family, relatives, friends and off course as a partner. I look at you and I know, what it is to love and to be loved, without conditions. It is ironic, you were my unrivaled genuine happiness, however at times you were my only sorrow.

I miss those times when you call me "THEPU" When I was exhausted by the day's end and I called, you were dependably there to hear me out, to keep me fighting. You have been my motivation, you offered me assistance with achieving my dreams. However, now, they all came apart.

I need you to know that you will always be in my heart. The times we spent together I will always carry somewhere down in my spirit with the expectation that one day we will meet again and still feel this unimaginable, untouchable, everlasting love for one another. We shared our lives together; through family, God, our dreams, passions, our objectives in life, and last but not the least through love.

I know that I've hurt you such a large number of times and that I shouldn't be annoying your life now. You are a decent soul and you deserve somebody superior to anything I am. I tried to change for you, yet my efforts were insufficient. I trust by one means or another, I made your life special, however I've not been ideal for you. I hope you'll be glad now and that you can discover the individual whom you genuinely deserve. I wish you will find a hero who is every one of the things I couldn't be.

Everything I can request now is your forgiveness, however inside I will yearn for quite a lot more. I yearn to grasp your delicate touch, to look into your shiny eyes only once again. If I had known things would have turned out this way, I would have transformed it all. Those immature affront would rather have been compliments. I can do only apologize for my mistakes.

If you truly decide to give up, then I can do nothing. I know sorry is insufficient for the things I have done but rather I trust my genuineness is sufficient. I regretted those stupid things that I've done. In view of those things, I lost you, I lost a part of me. What's more, I'll never love again because of that. We've done our best to make our relationship last more, yet things happen and we needed to say goodbye. This farewell would not mean forgetting our memories, they are excessively unique, making it impossible to forget.

Presently I should feel this way alone. I have pushed you away, and lost you. Possibly one day, our ways will rejoin. On the off chance that this wish is conceded all will be different. I will treat you how you should be treated, and I promise I will never hurt you. Until then I should suffer the pain I have given myself.

We needed to say goodbye however I need you to remember this ... you will always remain as a cherished memory to me. I see myself as fortunate to experience a love as great as yours. I leave you with this last thought … one day, somewhere we will meet again under a blanket of light and purity. Our love will sparkle again and we will be allowed to take off … until the end of time.

Farewell, Numb. God bless you.