MY RHYMES: A New Me

A NEW ME

I'm lost in thoughts sometimes,
I don't want to write sometimes,
But still there are thoughts
swimming in my mind,
For the greed of solitude
And I starts like this,

Still waiting in the wonder
Of how I ended here
From my tender beginnings
To a path that's never clear,

In this sea life of mine,
I'm my own ripples,
I'm the sailor of storm,
And I'm the shore of home,

When I look at mirror of life,
I hardly recognize me,
I see a new me, a better me,
I see a best version of myself.

MY LIFE: Strangers Again

It's interesting to think about how we make people who used to be everything into nothing again. How we learn to forget. How we force forgetting. The path that was started so innocently has taken us to here, strangers again.

However, yeah like most we started as a strangers. I never wished that we would end up where we are today. To be honest, with the way our story began, I never thought it could possibly end like this. .

Be that as it may, every sentiments become empty thoughts when I look back now. Recalling that love is not what it generally appears. It's just so simple to forget.

From so long ago my question is if it really happened. The person used to be my best friend, the person who was the number one priority, the girl I thought could never exist, she was everything that I thought could be perfect in any girl.

Still after all these, we lost the fight with this society and all that of left is a mind with random memories from our faded period of time when this stranger was most important person in my life. Now, our lifes will continue on in different directions becoming STRANGERS AGAIN.

LIFE : Castle of Dreams

You were the most beautiful dream of my life..
Now you are the nightmare where I struggle to survive.. But before these nightmares there was a time when thinking about them was the most beautiful moment of life. When we were building that castle of dream.

I had built my dreams with all of my heart and love.
I had seen them growing within me and within you.
Long back, I was a dreamer and you mould me into a believer,
With that believe we had built our dreams step by step, 
We made it so far, 
We made it so high.
With love and care
With joy and sorrow
With hopes and struggles,

But when the storm came , you left at the first sight of rain..But our castle fought well and tried hard to retain whatever left of you. But soon it felt down, crashing everything whatever came on its way, even me. Every dream shattered into infinite pieces and nothing left to recollect. I flew in a pool of darkness and I felt like darkness is slowly pulling me down, to delete me from my own existence. All my emotions had been swirled in a tempest of pain and raged raw feeling, and I thought it’s going to go on forever. 
Somehow I survived but I had witnessed everything,
Making of dreams, 
Falling of dreams , 
Pain of dreams and
Dying of dreams.

I tried to collect the tiny shattered pieces of every single dream but in doing so I realised not all of a good dream is fulfilled. 
You can't win all the fights,
You've to loose sometimes,
That's how you learn,
That's how you grow,
That's how you evolve and
That's how you become the best version of yourself..

LIFE : His Fight, His Triumph

He used to think he was alone in his struggles. But with each passing tumbling stone all of his insecurities were banished as he realised it was not the him; the lone; battling life, there were millions of others countering this malady.

"We as a whole need to learn from each other and real change is slow," he said.

Never regret. Everything should be the way it ended up being. Quit pointing the finger at life for being out of line. That is the manner by which it is. Worrying over it won't help and it's never too late where it is possible to start from the very beginning again.

The best lessons he has learned in dealing with his life can be summed up in three words: Never Give Up. This meant that he always had a new challenge to go up against. Yet, he discovered that the best approach was not to let his obsessions dictate his life. 

Over the time, his struggle taught him to treat life as a gift it seems to be.

© rahuldhanik.blogspot.com

© samsara_thewanderingmonk

MY RHYMES :One Step Closer

When you wake up in the morning, you always asking yourself questions, whether you realize or not. Today I woke up at 4am, I don’t know how or why, but somehow I woke up. I believe it might be due to I’ve left my part time job at Amazon, which had night shifts. For the last couple of months the first thing I would do every single time when I woke up is turn on the laptop and watch some videos on YouTube. But today something different has happened, I was way far from music and my mind was into my past and that’s when I realized that my life has somehow changed completely in last 4 to 5 months. I asked myself two questions “What am I doing with my life and how has not being with Numb changed my life?” 

It’s so strange to think somebody I knew so well is now a totally stranger to me, but that somebody is still matters to me. I realized not all of a good dream is fulfilled. Everything ends, that’s how we know that everything begins. All good things must come to an end, and my relationship is no different. Sometime it’s not about the happy ending, sometime it’s about the story. This realization alone gave me the perspective that is going to help me answer these two seemingly complex questions.

ONE STEP CLOSER

It’s a complete new day

Simply relax, sit by the window

Feel the wind in your hair

Feel the mist in your eyes

Give the morning a chance to inspire you

Give the sun a chance to shine all over

Let’s take one more step in the future

Let’s turn one more page of the past

Everybody has regrets

Everybody commits mistakes

Everybody has a terrible past

Don’t hide your scars

Wear them as a motivation

It’s difficult, to let go and move on

Let your own life be an inspiration

Because one step is one step closer towards your dreams

Problems aren’t going to alter themselves

Difficulties aren’t going to vanish

This journey will be tough, there will be lows

It’ll take time, possibly days, perhaps months, might be years

But at last, it will set you free

Remember this,

Life, gives you a possibility

To move on with every new dawn

© SAMSARA

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RHYMES : The Death Song

I'm scared of clocks now

Cause soon, they'll never tick for you anymore

Outside the window

It's pouring jazz and blues

But it never rains for you

And I cannot hold my tears

Knowing soon you won't be here

It's more than words to hold your hand

I hope you can understand

It's more than hope that keeps me here

I'd be with you anywhere, my dear

It's more than love that makes me wait

Knowing it's all too late

Your face get's more and more pale now

And now my bread has gone stale, oh

I'm such a worthless bedside mystic

I cannot chew, the lumps resist it

Searching for words for some relief

While I hide away and scream

But you're just waiting for death to come

It's in the background like a redrum

The warm sound of your voice is still

As angels cry

Falleth from the skies

You can rest now your chest and lay, my dear

Much I'd love to have you near

It's more than words to hold your hand

I hope you can understand

It's more than hope that keeps me here

I'd be with you anywhere, my dear

It's more than love that makes me wait

Knowing it's all too late

© +Chandra Dhanik 

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R H Y M E S : I 'm s o r r y....

A random composition I went across to..

I can really relate it to me.... 

Certainly this is me...

A new me....

And I'm sorry...

I'm sorry I kiss your lips 

in my sleep,

I'm sorry you're on my mind 

as I lose myself and find myself,

I'm sorry I imagine you

by my side as I cook myself 

meals, singing the songs I imagine

would be our favourite tunes.

I'm sorry I reach for you with my arm 

every morning as I wake,

just to find that you ae not there.

I'm sorry we're apart...

I'm sorry I'm falling in love...

I'm sorry I'm here,

while you're there.....

© ANONYMOUS